I think for a moment
I forgot who I was
I wanted to be small
But as a big
That’s kind of hard
When everything about me is
Loud like when I walk down the hall
And the sound my thighs make with every step as they rub together
Loud like when I’m overthinking and you can hear my thoughts churning from a mile away
Loud like in a sea of brunettes and grey grannies my hair shines like the sun
Loud like when I’m so angry I feel like I might burst you can feel my anger coming off me in waves.
Loud like when I walk in to a room my chest claims everyone’s attention whether I want it to or not
These are not things that I wanted
Not what I asked for
And yet here I am
I was never meant to be small.
I was meant to be TALL and LOUD
And it’s about time I remember that.